Throughout my entire life, the one thing that got me into so much trouble is my big mouth. I either blurt out something I'm not suppose to say, or tell people stuff that should not be said to other people. 27 years down the line, this thing has gotten myself into trouble. Here is what happened, I used to brag about how much I can drink and how on my 25th birthday i allegedly drank enough to send myself to the hospital to this one group of friends. And then I was talking about all the shots i had in the past and all and the drinking debauchery in Vancouver.. now they want me to do a drink off over the weekend.. wonderful because "they never saw it, it's only stories". Well liver, i apologize in advance for making you work overtime. I got a reputation to defend.. (i'm going to regret this)
I thought that the brain learns through errors and experiences. I guess I'm not one of those.. i think if i was an endangered specie, i would probably be weeded off, nature vs nurture.. damn you Darwin
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Updates
It seems it has been ages since I have last posted something on this blog. To be honest with you, not alot has been happening until lately. The best friend is in the hospital, and it was quite rough on me, mostly because I couldn't do anything to help her. I felt totally helpless and useless, seeing her suffering at the hospital was killing me. I tried calling a few people that works at the hospital but they all gave me the same speech. At least she's going to be discharged soon, but I truely hate this feeling.
Work evaluation is coming up soon. The problem is I don't know how to tell my manager that a) I do not want to continue to work in QA (the only reason why i have accepted this is to be a transition, a period for me to recover from the 2009 downfall) and b) I have no intention of staying in Montreal (see 5 year plan in previous post). The hardest part is trying to determine the objective for the upcoming year (how about, finding a job in development and leave montreal???). I don't want to burn any bridges here, nor do I want to corner myself and be stuck here for another 3 years. Ah decision, decisions decisions
Work evaluation is coming up soon. The problem is I don't know how to tell my manager that a) I do not want to continue to work in QA (the only reason why i have accepted this is to be a transition, a period for me to recover from the 2009 downfall) and b) I have no intention of staying in Montreal (see 5 year plan in previous post). The hardest part is trying to determine the objective for the upcoming year (how about, finding a job in development and leave montreal???). I don't want to burn any bridges here, nor do I want to corner myself and be stuck here for another 3 years. Ah decision, decisions decisions
Monday, January 4, 2010
Twenty Ten
So twenty ten has finally arrived. New year, new decade and.. new chapter of my life? After finishing my bachelor degree, I gave myself a 5 year plan: 5 years into my career, I will be living somewhere outside the province in Quebec. I consider the start of my career when I had my first professional job as a programmer at Gameloft, which places the start in January 2006. With the help of basic math, my deadline is up in January 2011, which pretty much leaves me to the end of this year to secure myself a job. 361 days remaining.
Do I still want to leave Montreal and live in another city? I will answer this with a big fat YES in a heart beat. 2009 was roller coaster year leaving a bittersweet after taste. I think I'm a point in my career where I'm ready to tackle something new and challenging. My current job is satisfying for the time being. The work environment is definitely a step up from my previous work place but the workload is, boring. I am learning new things and acquiring new skills which is always good, but if you think hard enough, you can find positive points in any working experience.
Am I ready to actually take that big leap? I am not quite sure. Sure there is a scary factor to jump into the unknown (which is a motivation on its own for me) but there is a part of me that doesn't want to leave my current workplace, mostly out of loyalty. Another part of me lacks the confidence to find another job. I fully admit I'm not the best coder out there and my experience is extremely scattered (I consider myself as a jack of all trade, master of none) which is good and very bad at the same time. I am very skillful at selling myself when it comes to interviews but asking me questions right on the spot is a whole different ball park. The realist (and pessimistic) in me tell me the market is terrible and chances of hiring somebody from out of town/province/country is slim to none. And another part of me is just too damn lazy to update the resume, write cover letters, searching for jobs, apply, etc. Once I convince that part of myself to unlazy itself, then I can do it. That should be one of my 2010 resolutions.
Do I still want to leave Montreal and live in another city? I will answer this with a big fat YES in a heart beat. 2009 was roller coaster year leaving a bittersweet after taste. I think I'm a point in my career where I'm ready to tackle something new and challenging. My current job is satisfying for the time being. The work environment is definitely a step up from my previous work place but the workload is, boring. I am learning new things and acquiring new skills which is always good, but if you think hard enough, you can find positive points in any working experience.
Am I ready to actually take that big leap? I am not quite sure. Sure there is a scary factor to jump into the unknown (which is a motivation on its own for me) but there is a part of me that doesn't want to leave my current workplace, mostly out of loyalty. Another part of me lacks the confidence to find another job. I fully admit I'm not the best coder out there and my experience is extremely scattered (I consider myself as a jack of all trade, master of none) which is good and very bad at the same time. I am very skillful at selling myself when it comes to interviews but asking me questions right on the spot is a whole different ball park. The realist (and pessimistic) in me tell me the market is terrible and chances of hiring somebody from out of town/province/country is slim to none. And another part of me is just too damn lazy to update the resume, write cover letters, searching for jobs, apply, etc. Once I convince that part of myself to unlazy itself, then I can do it. That should be one of my 2010 resolutions.
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